to think, i used to be jealous of elisabeth hooking up with derek. how times change... i reposted that convo, the one with tristen about how stupid she is, in my journal. i felt kind of bad for putting it up, because it's kind of catty, me mocking mat's ex-girlfriend. rereading it i suddenly realized that, when i said it, i hated her because of her hooking up with derek.

i can remember that point, sophomore year, in my life, but i can't touch it, i can't feel those feelings anymore. i hated her back then. i thought she was my friend, but she wasn't. how much time did i spend telling her about how i liked derek?! then she meets him, fucks him, and whines to me about how he hurt her. BOO FRICKETY HOO BITCH. of course, a few months later she was ignoring me, and giving me dirty looks when i tried to talk to mary.

by the way, why does blogger look like xanga all of the sudden? hmmmmmmmm weird.

heh, i love how i look over at the radio, as if that way i could see travis and tristen, sitting there, on my stereo, talking. "imma loser, baby. so why don't you kill me?"

i think i have a rash on my tummy.

back to elisabeth, i've decided, that girl is just fucked up. you can NEVER tell what she really thinks of you, and no one ever seems to see things the way she does. i shouldn't expect much from a former drug addict who's tried to kill herself and has received multiple concussions.

oh well, that's all gone. too long ago to matter much anymore.